Do you sometimes feel like you have a "Foggy Brain"? I do!
I wanted to share with you some personal reflections, as a TBI (Traumatic Brain Injury) survivor and how 15 years later my brain still feels "foggy" at times or even like a Zombie Brain.
All too often, I wake up and feel as though my brain is covered in a deep fog. I wonder when will the Sun shine over my head to wake up all my neurons, endorphins, synapses, etc., in my brain. I sometimes refer to this as "Zombie Brain," because it feels as though I'm walking around like a zombie when I am having one of my many Migraine Episodes, which delays my brain function significantly.
When I wake up and start moving around my legs feel as though they are made of lead, my mind is very lethargic that I wonder if I am not in deep space, my comprehension skills become deflated, and most importantly, I just want to fall back to sleep. This is what I call "Foggy Brain." It happens quite frequently since my TBI and at times I have episodes that last for days. I get embarrassed when I have these episodes, because I feel as thought people look at me like I am an alien or a "Zombie." Hence, Zombie Brain. I get Migraines (on average) every other week. I constantly have a headache of some sort, but I have learned to deal with that pain and accept it, so I can manage my day to day activities. However, with Migraines, forget it! Here comes the Zombie, right?!
There are days when people talk to me, ask me questions, etc., all I can do is stare at them (as if I am not listening.) Little do they know, that I am trying very hard to comprehend their words, so I can respond efficiently without delay to their questions and/or statements. These are the harder days of my "foggy brain" days, but then there are other days where my brain is working without the Fog. Trying to find words while dealing with a "foggy brain" is even more trivial than finding the right words since my TBI.
When the sun is shining and I am able to function "normally," are days that are far easier to accept and deal with my TBI. I am grateful for these days, as it reminds me of how I used to be before the accident. When I feel as though I am a Zombie, I resent the day I was hit by the car, because my brain has changed dramatically.
Have you noticed when you meet someone else who has similar symptoms to you, you feel a bit of relief knowing you are "normal." When I meet someone with a TBI, we can talk for hours about our symptoms, how we cope with each day, our headaches, and we feel very connected. In any healing or recovery, you need to be around other individuals that have gone through what you are going through, as it makes your transition with your "new TBI life" a bit more bearable.
My neurologist told me years ago that my "Foggy Brain" is not normal, but a "normal" side effect from a TBI. When you add Migraine Headaches (or headaches in general) to the already Fogginess, life seems to get a bit more challenging.
Do you experience these? If so, you are not alone, nor am I. It feels good to have a connection and feel as though we are not alone.
If you or someone you know has suffered a TBI and experiences "Foggy Brain" here are a few links to aid in their daily life.
Brain Harmony Center
"Brain fog can include feeling spacy, confused, forgetful, lost, tired, along with difficulty thinking, concentrating, focussing, and completing tasks."
Brainline.org 'Preventing, Treating, and Living with Traumatic Brain Injury'
CDC (Center for Disease Control)
Always wishing you peace,